Saturday, June 09, 2007
at last
The damn has been broken
The seal undone
The reins untied
The barriers gone
Walls once built
Slowly crumbled
The spell once cast
Slowly unraveled
Tears are falling
An unending rain
The die has been cast
Time to face the game
Gush of warmth
Melting the ice
A flood of emotions
Streaming down my eyes
The gates have been opened
The chains released
What once had been bound
Is being slowly released
Finally. At long last
The walls are lowered
After years of waiting
Love can now be discovered
The seal undone
The reins untied
The barriers gone
Walls once built
Slowly crumbled
The spell once cast
Slowly unraveled
Tears are falling
An unending rain
The die has been cast
Time to face the game
Gush of warmth
Melting the ice
A flood of emotions
Streaming down my eyes
The gates have been opened
The chains released
What once had been bound
Is being slowly released
Finally. At long last
The walls are lowered
After years of waiting
Love can now be discovered
Friday, June 01, 2007
Signs
Was it a sign
That I dreamt of you
Sitting so close
Holding you?
All was still
All was silent
But you and me
And the world we created
I drew you close
On your shoulder I leaned
And felt so secure
So utterly cherished
I felt the warmth
Coursing through mine
Filling me with joy
As our fingers intertwined
I closed my eyes
Let my mind drift
And all problems
From my thoughts lift
But the silence was broken
Whispers
Murmurs
Grew louder
I opened my eyes
And saw the stares
Heard the voices
So loud and clear
Disgust and revolt
Etched on their faces
Silently implying
My actions are a disgrace
Tongues like vipers
Lash out and strike
Venom pierces the heart
Crippling me without a fight
Such vicious eyes
Raking my being
Such spiteful words
Silently condemning
So was it a sign?
Was it an omen?
That the thought of being together
Should just be forgotten
That I dreamt of you
Sitting so close
Holding you?
All was still
All was silent
But you and me
And the world we created
I drew you close
On your shoulder I leaned
And felt so secure
So utterly cherished
I felt the warmth
Coursing through mine
Filling me with joy
As our fingers intertwined
I closed my eyes
Let my mind drift
And all problems
From my thoughts lift
But the silence was broken
Whispers
Murmurs
Grew louder
I opened my eyes
And saw the stares
Heard the voices
So loud and clear
Disgust and revolt
Etched on their faces
Silently implying
My actions are a disgrace
Tongues like vipers
Lash out and strike
Venom pierces the heart
Crippling me without a fight
Such vicious eyes
Raking my being
Such spiteful words
Silently condemning
So was it a sign?
Was it an omen?
That the thought of being together
Should just be forgotten
Monday, April 16, 2007
My mistake
It was my fault
That I ended like this
Chaining my self
to every word of his
It was my choice
To see past the blame
And ignore all the things
That showed insult and shame
It was my call
To what road I would take
But I left it up to him
Out of pity’s sake
It was my will
That forced feelings to grow
Even if it was painful
For an ounce of it to show
It was my right
To demand any time
But I stifled my thoughts
As though they were a crime
It was because of me
That I’m left drained and empty
And he who I love
Cant help but not see
That I ended like this
Chaining my self
to every word of his
It was my choice
To see past the blame
And ignore all the things
That showed insult and shame
It was my call
To what road I would take
But I left it up to him
Out of pity’s sake
It was my will
That forced feelings to grow
Even if it was painful
For an ounce of it to show
It was my right
To demand any time
But I stifled my thoughts
As though they were a crime
It was because of me
That I’m left drained and empty
And he who I love
Cant help but not see
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
LOST
i going out of my mind
going out of my head
of the things i had done
the things i had said
what else to do
where else to go
ive ran in circles
not knowing where to go
is it all in the head
or all in the heart
ive asked a thousand times
still not knowing where to start
what is true?
tell me what is real?
is my world mere illussion
projections of what i feel
is there anyone out there
who can answer my plea
im so lost, so confussed
please help find me
going out of my head
of the things i had done
the things i had said
what else to do
where else to go
ive ran in circles
not knowing where to go
is it all in the head
or all in the heart
ive asked a thousand times
still not knowing where to start
what is true?
tell me what is real?
is my world mere illussion
projections of what i feel
is there anyone out there
who can answer my plea
im so lost, so confussed
please help find me
Saturday, December 02, 2006
Never
Can two worlds
Come and meet?
Live together
In harmony?
Can the sun and moon
Go hand and hand?
Illuminating light
All over the land?
Can the past and future
Exists as one?
To undo the deeds
That has been done?
Can north and south
Trod the same path?
While escaping the fury
Of natures’ wrath?
Can demon and angel
Share a kiss?
Go through each day
Enveloped in bliss?
Can you and I
Forever be?
And shatter the barriers
Of fate and destiny?
Alas
Never
Come and meet?
Live together
In harmony?
Can the sun and moon
Go hand and hand?
Illuminating light
All over the land?
Can the past and future
Exists as one?
To undo the deeds
That has been done?
Can north and south
Trod the same path?
While escaping the fury
Of natures’ wrath?
Can demon and angel
Share a kiss?
Go through each day
Enveloped in bliss?
Can you and I
Forever be?
And shatter the barriers
Of fate and destiny?
Alas
Never
Friday, November 24, 2006
dilema
for the past 3 months i've been thinking, if i really made the right decision. things have happened, issues brought up, problems dealt with and people encountered that confused my way of seeing things, of looking at things with the right persepective.
i entered a relationship thinking that i can find love, that i can feel love and that i can at last learn again how to love. i went through it with an open mind and an open heart, thinking that at long last i can have a glimpse of the emotion that has eluded me for quite a while but then things are never what they seem
ive been happy for the first part of the relationship but as it progressed, i felt hollowed out inside. It seemed as though nothing really was going on between us. Yes we communicate but we rarely saw each other because of our schedule and his financial problem. At times i felt i didnt have anyone, himself for that matter and that i was just living a normal life.
I also got fed up hearing about it, everything i do and everything that has any connection with me he condemns in a way that it makes me feel guilty of being who i am and what i am. i tried so hard to help and give him what he wants but then it doesnt seem to be enough. rather than being happy i became apathetic and angry
so i tried to do the right thing, to end it off since its not only unfair to him but to me as well.
i dont know if what i did was wrong, since his not speaking to me right now. i tried to voice out what i feel in regards to our relationship but its as if he doesnt want to listen.
i dont know what else to do
i entered a relationship thinking that i can find love, that i can feel love and that i can at last learn again how to love. i went through it with an open mind and an open heart, thinking that at long last i can have a glimpse of the emotion that has eluded me for quite a while but then things are never what they seem
ive been happy for the first part of the relationship but as it progressed, i felt hollowed out inside. It seemed as though nothing really was going on between us. Yes we communicate but we rarely saw each other because of our schedule and his financial problem. At times i felt i didnt have anyone, himself for that matter and that i was just living a normal life.
I also got fed up hearing about it, everything i do and everything that has any connection with me he condemns in a way that it makes me feel guilty of being who i am and what i am. i tried so hard to help and give him what he wants but then it doesnt seem to be enough. rather than being happy i became apathetic and angry
so i tried to do the right thing, to end it off since its not only unfair to him but to me as well.
i dont know if what i did was wrong, since his not speaking to me right now. i tried to voice out what i feel in regards to our relationship but its as if he doesnt want to listen.
i dont know what else to do
Friday, October 20, 2006
dazed and confused
i promised myself that i would never indulge again but then some promises are made to be broken. I just needed an outlet to release all the building questions in my mind and in my life, I needed something to take me away from all the troubles that are circling my every move. I just needed to unwind.
Am I happy? for now i really have no idea. with the events that are happening between the 2 of us rather than being filled with love and happiness, i'm more confused. Did i do the right thing by going into this? ever since we came together my life has been turned upside down. I cant be the person that he wants and i dont know if he can accept who i really am. Our worlds are far apart, and ive been trying my best not to let it come between us, but it seems he's the one who can come to grips with everything
i really dont know what to do anymore, its as if im settling for the next best thing since i cant have the other one. am i? i really dont know. I have feelings for him but with this distance spanning what i feel for him is over ridden by what i feel for the other. it seems as though im the one doing all the work in this relationship and i think im going past my capacity
i dont know what more to do...i really dont know
Am I happy? for now i really have no idea. with the events that are happening between the 2 of us rather than being filled with love and happiness, i'm more confused. Did i do the right thing by going into this? ever since we came together my life has been turned upside down. I cant be the person that he wants and i dont know if he can accept who i really am. Our worlds are far apart, and ive been trying my best not to let it come between us, but it seems he's the one who can come to grips with everything
i really dont know what to do anymore, its as if im settling for the next best thing since i cant have the other one. am i? i really dont know. I have feelings for him but with this distance spanning what i feel for him is over ridden by what i feel for the other. it seems as though im the one doing all the work in this relationship and i think im going past my capacity
i dont know what more to do...i really dont know
