Friday, October 20, 2006

 

dazed and confused

i promised myself that i would never indulge again but then some promises are made to be broken. I just needed an outlet to release all the building questions in my mind and in my life, I needed something to take me away from all the troubles that are circling my every move. I just needed to unwind.

Am I happy? for now i really have no idea. with the events that are happening between the 2 of us rather than being filled with love and happiness, i'm more confused. Did i do the right thing by going into this? ever since we came together my life has been turned upside down. I cant be the person that he wants and i dont know if he can accept who i really am. Our worlds are far apart, and ive been trying my best not to let it come between us, but it seems he's the one who can come to grips with everything

i really dont know what to do anymore, its as if im settling for the next best thing since i cant have the other one. am i? i really dont know. I have feelings for him but with this distance spanning what i feel for him is over ridden by what i feel for the other. it seems as though im the one doing all the work in this relationship and i think im going past my capacity

i dont know what more to do...i really dont know

# created by Syre @ 10/20/2006 09:44:00 AM
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