Sunday, August 28, 2005
To let go...
-->To let go isn't to forget, not think about, or ignore.
-->It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret.
-->Letting go isn't winning and it isn't losing.
-->It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear, and it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past.
-->Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn't leave emptiness, hurt or sadness.
-->It's not giving in or giving up.
-->Letting go isn't about loss, and it's not defeat.
-->To let go is to cherish memories, but to overcome and to move on.
-->It is having an open mind and confidence in the future.
-->Letting go is accepting.
-->It is learning and experiencing and growing.
-->To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry and made you grow.
-->It's about all that you have, all that you had and all that you will soon gain.
-->Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving.
-->Letting go is growing up.
-->It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy.
-->To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and to set yourself free."
-->It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret.
-->Letting go isn't winning and it isn't losing.
-->It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear, and it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past.
-->Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn't leave emptiness, hurt or sadness.
-->It's not giving in or giving up.
-->Letting go isn't about loss, and it's not defeat.
-->To let go is to cherish memories, but to overcome and to move on.
-->It is having an open mind and confidence in the future.
-->Letting go is accepting.
-->It is learning and experiencing and growing.
-->To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry and made you grow.
-->It's about all that you have, all that you had and all that you will soon gain.
-->Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving.
-->Letting go is growing up.
-->It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy.
-->To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and to set yourself free."
Hahaha...so true!!!!!
Pseudo-relationships.
Pseudo-boyfriends.
Pseudo-girlfriends.Flings.
Almost like a relationship, but not quite.
It is a phase where the persons involvedare more than friends, but not quite lovers.
Puwedeng may verbal agreement,puwedeng wala.
One or both of you may have admitted yourfeelings,possible ding hindi.
You just let your gestures do the talking for you.
Walang pormal na ligawan na nangyari.
Hindi kayo mag-dyowa.
Pero sa kilos niyo,sa mga sinasabi niyo,parang kayo,pero hindi.
This kind of "relationship"can happen at different stagesfor different reasons.
It can happen after a break-up.
You still love each other,and you want to be with each otherbut you broke up for a reason.
And for reasons that you alone know,ayaw niyo na muna magkabalikan.
It can also happen before a relationship,iyong pareho kayong nakikiramdam.
Possible din na ayaw niyo munang mag-seryoso kaya kunwa-kunwarian lang muna.
Testing lang. (tama ba un?!)
Puwede ring hindi puwedeng maging kayokasi isa sa inyo may ka-relasyon na.
Kaya habang hindi pa siyanakikipag-break doon sa boy/girl(sabi niya makikipag-break siya soonpero di naman niya ginagawa),wala muna kayong relasyonpara nga naman hindi siya nangangaliwakasi "hindi naman kayo."
This pseudo-relationship stage,for a time, can be fun.Lalo na kung naghahanapka lang naman ng "KALARO."
Pero huwag ka lang mag-e-expectna may patutunguhan kayo kzewala talagang kasiguraduhan.
So bakit ang daming nagse-settlesa ganitong set up ganoonghindi naman siguradokung may patutunguhan?
Iba't ibang dahilan.
Puwedeng for fun lang.Puwedeng "buti na iyan kesa wala" orpuwede na iyang "pantawid-gutom."
Meaning, habang wala pa iyong the real thing,doon muna sa kunwa-kunwarian.
For those who are not in a serious relationship,they would think that pseudo-relationshipis better than no relationship at all.I
t would be fun, if all you're afteris that "kilig" feeling.
But then I learned that although it wasonly a pseudo-relationship,the emotions were real.
And usually, in this kind of set up,merong malulugi.."ung nainlove sa taong taken na.."
Una, you can't ask him/her to commit.
Since it's not really a relationship,you can't demand commitment from yourpartner.
Ano ba kayo?
You will always be uncertainabout your role in his/her life.You can't expect him/herto be always there with you.
And if you feel jealous of the other boys/girls,you just have to keep it to yourself.
Ano ka ba niya para magselos?
Pangalawa, what ifyou fall deeply in love with him/her?
You can't be sure if he/she feels the same way.Baka nag-a-assume ka langna mahal ka rin niya.
Even if you are dyingto tell him/her you love him/her,you can't.Because you're not sureif he/she will like it.
Baka mapahiya ka lang.
This stage will always make you wonderwhere you are in the relationship.Or if there is a relationship at all.
Pangatlo, what if you become attached toomuch?
What if you have investedall your emotions and this man/woman hasn't?
What if you remain faithful to him/her,not entertaining other guys/gals,only to find out that he/she is seeingother girls/boys?
Isa pang downside ng pseudo-relationships,it is fleeting.
When a disagreement sets in,or when one of you gets cold,then that would be the end of it.
Unlike in a serious relationship,hindi mo alam kung saan ka lulugarsa isang pseudo-relationship.
Wala kang pinanghahawakan.Kasi sa pseudo- relationship,there is no "us."
Meron lang "you and me.."
Pseudo-boyfriends.
Pseudo-girlfriends.Flings.
Almost like a relationship, but not quite.
It is a phase where the persons involvedare more than friends, but not quite lovers.
Puwedeng may verbal agreement,puwedeng wala.
One or both of you may have admitted yourfeelings,possible ding hindi.
You just let your gestures do the talking for you.
Walang pormal na ligawan na nangyari.
Hindi kayo mag-dyowa.
Pero sa kilos niyo,sa mga sinasabi niyo,parang kayo,pero hindi.
This kind of "relationship"can happen at different stagesfor different reasons.
It can happen after a break-up.
You still love each other,and you want to be with each otherbut you broke up for a reason.
And for reasons that you alone know,ayaw niyo na muna magkabalikan.
It can also happen before a relationship,iyong pareho kayong nakikiramdam.
Possible din na ayaw niyo munang mag-seryoso kaya kunwa-kunwarian lang muna.
Testing lang. (tama ba un?!)
Puwede ring hindi puwedeng maging kayokasi isa sa inyo may ka-relasyon na.
Kaya habang hindi pa siyanakikipag-break doon sa boy/girl(sabi niya makikipag-break siya soonpero di naman niya ginagawa),wala muna kayong relasyonpara nga naman hindi siya nangangaliwakasi "hindi naman kayo."
This pseudo-relationship stage,for a time, can be fun.Lalo na kung naghahanapka lang naman ng "KALARO."
Pero huwag ka lang mag-e-expectna may patutunguhan kayo kzewala talagang kasiguraduhan.
So bakit ang daming nagse-settlesa ganitong set up ganoonghindi naman siguradokung may patutunguhan?
Iba't ibang dahilan.
Puwedeng for fun lang.Puwedeng "buti na iyan kesa wala" orpuwede na iyang "pantawid-gutom."
Meaning, habang wala pa iyong the real thing,doon muna sa kunwa-kunwarian.
For those who are not in a serious relationship,they would think that pseudo-relationshipis better than no relationship at all.I
t would be fun, if all you're afteris that "kilig" feeling.
But then I learned that although it wasonly a pseudo-relationship,the emotions were real.
And usually, in this kind of set up,merong malulugi.."ung nainlove sa taong taken na.."
Una, you can't ask him/her to commit.
Since it's not really a relationship,you can't demand commitment from yourpartner.
Ano ba kayo?
You will always be uncertainabout your role in his/her life.You can't expect him/herto be always there with you.
And if you feel jealous of the other boys/girls,you just have to keep it to yourself.
Ano ka ba niya para magselos?
Pangalawa, what ifyou fall deeply in love with him/her?
You can't be sure if he/she feels the same way.Baka nag-a-assume ka langna mahal ka rin niya.
Even if you are dyingto tell him/her you love him/her,you can't.Because you're not sureif he/she will like it.
Baka mapahiya ka lang.
This stage will always make you wonderwhere you are in the relationship.Or if there is a relationship at all.
Pangatlo, what if you become attached toomuch?
What if you have investedall your emotions and this man/woman hasn't?
What if you remain faithful to him/her,not entertaining other guys/gals,only to find out that he/she is seeingother girls/boys?
Isa pang downside ng pseudo-relationships,it is fleeting.
When a disagreement sets in,or when one of you gets cold,then that would be the end of it.
Unlike in a serious relationship,hindi mo alam kung saan ka lulugarsa isang pseudo-relationship.
Wala kang pinanghahawakan.Kasi sa pseudo- relationship,there is no "us."
Meron lang "you and me.."
>>>>>Thanks Babs<<<<<
Friday, August 26, 2005
Something to think about
MME said, "The world is too small for my love", but for me its just plain too small. Living in this world is like a friendster connection. You have a friend who happens to be a friend of the friend of yor cousins. There are also instances when you like someone who's the cousin of the friend of the brother of your enemy. Sometimes you and your friend say hi to someone when in fact you both know that person, your just not aware of it. Confusing right? Its also annoying.
I had this experience. My blockmate was ranting about her partner in Spanish. The guy is such a...well figure it out. He didn't show up at their meeting, he's always on the run when she's contacting him at the last draw was that he made her wait 3 hours for a phone call just to say "This is taking too long" 10 minutes in the conversation. Can you believe the nerve of the guy? If I was my blockmate I'll smack him on the face...
Then things get weird. last tuesday she was again telling us the problem she was encountering with the guy when she let it slip who the guy was. Guess what, I know him!! HA! what a big surprise. Plus I had a thing for him back in first year because he reminded me of someone. I swear I was so shoked to know that. Then a while ago we were walking along the corridors when we both saw him. She looked at me and asked if it was the same guy. And yes it was...HA! what an unbelievable turn of events. Like I said, the world is just a tad to small for my liking
Saturday, August 20, 2005
Together again
Its been a long time since Anne, Babs and me have spent the night together. Before college started we spend so much time together. There was a time that our stay in each ones house lasted up to a week. A lot of people wonder what we do when we're together. Well that's the mystery..hehehe and only the three of us know it. So it was really nice that after long time we came together and spent the night with each other.
div align="justify">I went to the Toyota car show at World Trade Center yesterday. I just went there since I heard that they were housing the Toyota F1 car. We were supposed to meet there since the three of us are formula one fanatics. But things didn't turn out the way we wanted them. The car show was not what I expected. Yeah I saw the formula car and toyota's concept car but that was it. Since I was the first one to arrive I was able to tell them what was in store for us. So we decided to just go out since its been a long time since we last went out together.
So we went to Galleria and we decided to watch a movie. I turned out we had ourselves a movie marathon. It was really fun, with all the things we've been undergoing now, its a nice way to break free from the stress and problems of our lives. We arrived relatively late at my bf's house but we still didn't sleep. We talked talked about the things that happened before, remeniscing about the past since it seemed that me past kept resurfacing last night. But late into the night Anne fell asleep and it was just babs and me. She asked me stuff regarding the problem she ws encountering and I tried my best to tell her what I think about it. We talked and talked until we both fell asleep
But now were back in reality, where we have to face our demons whole heartedly. Still it nice to remember that with our hectic schedule we still find time to be together
Monday, August 08, 2005
A Question
How can you say that love is true
when people just come and go?
leaving you in a darkened world
to bask in pain and sorrow
How can you say that dreams are true
when they easily fade away?
So called fantasies that hold no meaning
just mere illusions
How can you say that joy is true
when sadness is etched on your face?
Eyes that mirroir the heartache within
chassing bliss and all its trace
How can you say that promises are true
when they are hardly kept?
Empty vows that hold no truth
leaving lies that you easily accept
How can you say that hope is true
when you lie quivering in a puddle of grief?
answers so desperately sought
reward you with anguish and not relief
How can you say that friendships are true
when gossips are within reach?
unknowingly murdering each other
making it a bond easily breached
So how can you say that families are true
when alone is what you have become?
isolated and neglected
left by the ones who should have come
when people just come and go?
leaving you in a darkened world
to bask in pain and sorrow
How can you say that dreams are true
when they easily fade away?
So called fantasies that hold no meaning
just mere illusions
How can you say that joy is true
when sadness is etched on your face?
Eyes that mirroir the heartache within
chassing bliss and all its trace
How can you say that promises are true
when they are hardly kept?
Empty vows that hold no truth
leaving lies that you easily accept
How can you say that hope is true
when you lie quivering in a puddle of grief?
answers so desperately sought
reward you with anguish and not relief
How can you say that friendships are true
when gossips are within reach?
unknowingly murdering each other
making it a bond easily breached
So how can you say that families are true
when alone is what you have become?
isolated and neglected
left by the ones who should have come
Friday, August 05, 2005
Who am I?
Forgettable
That is what I am
Living a life
That is nothing but a sham
Unlovable
That is what I see
Of the pitiful creature
That exists as me
Regrettable
That is what they say
Of being with me
In any possible way
Worthless
That is what I feel
Due to the wounds
That would not heal
Alone
That is what ill be
Like what is written
In my destiny
That is what I am
Living a life
That is nothing but a sham
Unlovable
That is what I see
Of the pitiful creature
That exists as me
Regrettable
That is what they say
Of being with me
In any possible way
Worthless
That is what I feel
Due to the wounds
That would not heal
Alone
That is what ill be
Like what is written
In my destiny
