Monday, March 21, 2005
my baby won!! he actually won the Sepang Grand Prix yesterday!! and I'm so happy. You see he placed third in the Melbourne Grand Prix and I was really hoping that he would do well in the upcomming races. Gosh, when I watched the Prequalifing I was really nervous because the other top racers where at the bottom five...like Schumi..hehehehe...so I thought he woudn't be that lucky. But he proved me wrong, he did it...and it looks as if its his birthday gift to me (since they didn't have a race on my birthday)....Gosh I just wish that he would continue to do his best in the upcomming races. So unfortunate for his team mate, they could have scored more points but thing happen...that's why all throughout the race i was praying for him...It seems like I pulled it off...
Gosh I hope they win, the standing of Ferrari is not good but it looks like they're going to release their new car in the upcomming race, I just hope he can still do great in it.
Alonso and Me so happy together
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This is the picture my blockmates made for my card, so it seems he really was giving me a birthday present with his winnings..=)
Thursday, March 17, 2005
it is over. the end is finally here. freedom is now within my reach. such joy, such exhiliration burst through my pores. my heart is beating so wildly, like a horse galloping into the wild. the time has finally come....for us to party!!!
yehey!! finally its summer already. i've been waiting for what seem like an eternity for school to be out and for me to just sit back, relax and enjoy the show..hehehe..well this week was all finals so i didn't do that much aside from studying. but something really funny happened last moday.
it was my first day for finals, also the day after my birthday. i was running a little behind since i got stuck in traffic. so i called one of my blockmates to ask if they are already there. but the thing was, while i was talking to her i could hear people laughing from the background. she herself was laughing, so i thought something was up. when i entered the classroom all my blockmates greeted my a happy birthday. i was really surprised in seeing all of them there. then two of my closets blockmates gave me this card.
we have this tradition oin my circle to give a card to the celebrant where in everyone signs on it. but the thing with my card was alonso's pic and mine where there..lol..it looks like were hugging. it was really funny and when i upload the pic ill show it. after the test we went out and ate at our favorite restaurant in katipunan... hehehe its something ill never forget
as of this moment i'm talking with those guys. i'm really gana miss all the fun we had during our eng and lit classes. were planning on going somewhere and they even though were going to be apart in the future, we shoulnd't forget the bound we formed... gosh im getting mushy
im looking forward to this vacation for although i am going back to school to catch up on classes that i still lack for my course, some of my time will be spent with my new friends and old ones.
Saturday, March 12, 2005
Destiny
He is out there waiting
As the sun sets, bringing forth night
He stands still. Solitary. Beckoning
A shadow in the darkness, a silhouette of night
A faceless stranger amidst the stars
The answer to my unending plight
I hear his voice, whispering
Through the winds, the rustle of the trees
Seeking me out. Seducing
"My love, my life" he chants
Slowly piercing my barred soul
"Come to me" he silently commands
My eyes flutter close, my body began to sway
His soft demand assaults my being
Saying "within my embrace is where you should stay"
Hypnotized beyond control
I slowly walk into his awaiting arms
Condemning my immortal soul
There I will lie for all eternity
Wrapped within the reapers warmth
Spending my life with this entity
As the sun sets, bringing forth night
He stands still. Solitary. Beckoning
A shadow in the darkness, a silhouette of night
A faceless stranger amidst the stars
The answer to my unending plight
I hear his voice, whispering
Through the winds, the rustle of the trees
Seeking me out. Seducing
"My love, my life" he chants
Slowly piercing my barred soul
"Come to me" he silently commands
My eyes flutter close, my body began to sway
His soft demand assaults my being
Saying "within my embrace is where you should stay"
Hypnotized beyond control
I slowly walk into his awaiting arms
Condemning my immortal soul
There I will lie for all eternity
Wrapped within the reapers warmth
Spending my life with this entity
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
My birthday is just around the corner, but I'm not happy. For me its just an ordinary, telling me that school is about to end. I dont see the purpose of celebrating something that hold no meaning to me. I dont see the point of saying its "happy" when I for one am not. I'm just indifferent about it because i dont feel anything at all.
I dont see the purpose of celebrating life when I'm dying inside. I dont see the purpose of being happy when what I feel is desolation. I dont see the reason for joy and warmth when I feel cold and empty.
What's the point right? Everybody's telling me to celebrate, but you see I can seem to find anything to celebrate. Maybe its because of the knowledge that I'm going to be a year older. Or maybe its because I dont see the reason the celebrate a life in which I dont want any part of
Sunday, March 06, 2005
My baby....
My baby won!! my baby won! and I'm so happy for him. I was disappointed at first since his prequalifying and qualifying time was so slow (because of the hard rain) so he was placed at the bottom ten of the pole. He was at the 13th position so I wasn't holding any hopes of him going to the podium. It woud have been okay for me if he was at the top ten since had a bad start.
But he won, well technically he ranked third. From the 13th place he want up ten notches and I couldn't believe it. I was at home, staring fixedly at the tv because he was gaining and he was winning. That really made my day Plus his team mate was the one who really won the race, so it was a done deal for them.
I'm so happy I saw him again, and his victory is somewhat an early birthday present for me.
Saturday, March 05, 2005
Ahhhh
Its the start of the F1 season and I'm so happy because I finally saw Fernado again. Oh my gosh, he is so cute. But it sucked because their place in pre-qualifying was at the bottom 10. Well it was due to the weather. It was really pouring in Melborne. Good thing Fishecella was on the top, atleast one Renault member has a good position. They had to reschedule the qualifying because of the conditions so I have to wake up tom at around 7 to watch it. Its okay since I do wake up early anyway.
The thing that sucks is I have to do a lot of things for monday. I have 2 projects for Botany, 1 journal entry for 46 chapters (wherein we have to write about each chapter) on Lit and the stupid story book for Fil. I have to do it since there are only 3 of us in the group. One is so passive you could literally forget she' s there, then there's the guy (doi can you in this life time ever trust a guy?) so that leaves me. Oh well.
Then I had this dream the other night. It was about this someone. We were in a building, in school or in a hotel. I really dont remember. I just recall falling, my friend catching me because I had high fever. She brought me to the clinic and that's when that person showed up, along with our friend. They brought me to this room, where they placed me on the bad. Then things started to get weird. That person laid beside me, drawing me close, snuggling beside me. I was drifting to slumber when I heard our friend said. " That's not good, your not supposed to do that". But I see that person smiling and just cuddled close.
I don't know what to think, I dont know what to feel. Maybe I'm just blowing things out of proportion.. Lol...
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
Paranoia
I think something is wrong with me. There is this certain feeling inside me waiting to be unlocked, to be unleashed, to be let free and its making me afraid. Sometying is happening within me, a change, an awakenin but its covered with dread and anxiety. I think I'm turining to my old self again, the person that I have tried so hard to conceal, to hide and to vanquish. I'm returning to the person I was years before, a person whom no one in the persent can recognize, a person I tried so hard not to face
I'm becoming Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hyde is slowing vanishing into air
It came haunting back last thursday,a rush of emotion, a flopding of the senses clouding the mind and leaving me vulnerable. The years that have passed suddenly stares me in the eye, showing itself and mocking the person I am now
I'm confused, left in the dark not knowing what to do. Who am I? Who is the person that stares a me when I face the mirror? Who is the person I see in every photograph tha surounds thje house? Who is the person the sleeps, walks, talks and relates with my family and friends? Who am I really or better yet what am I?
