Friday, May 19, 2006

 

An Ode To You

you are the sun
thatlights up my day
piercing through the shadows
that lurk in our way

you are the joy
that brights up my life
wiping away the sadness
in my world filled with strife

you are the comfort
the rest I seek
whenever the future
appears so bleak

you are the love
that fills my soul
mending the broken pieces
and making me whole

you are the angel
heaven sent
your are, and will always be
my very special friend

# created by Syre @ 5/19/2006 05:54:00 AM 2 reactions

Sunday, May 14, 2006

 

it must be the weather

therI don’t know if its me or the weather, but for the past few days im not only reflective but melancholy as well. As the rain continues to fall down, I cant help but stare out the window and think, and in thinking I was able to look inside me. It seems the problem I had before not only escalated but has reoccurred tenfold. They say that the problem is within me for I am the one the built the wall to conceal my vulnerabilities inside. I erected a shield that would hinder anyone from piercing through my armor. Thus I am left with the person I am now, someone who’s utterly lost and empty inside. Yes I admit I am straying away from pain and emotions alike and its because I don’t want to be disappointed in the end. It seems that every time I hope it all ends to nothing, every time I yearn what I want just moves so far from my reach and every time I finally see the light, it is but a mirage, an illusion. Yes I am scared of being hurt because I don’t know what I would do if I’m dealt with that kind of pain again but the sole reason for my evasion might stem from my fear. It seems odd that something like this has ruled my persona for a long time. I’ve tried my best to look for the answer but nothing seems right enough to correct the wrong that I’ve done. It seems that with each passing day I’m slowly dying because the strong passions I had before are now fading away. Maybe like they said I just need something to keep myself occupied, but even that seems too much to ask. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m just really tired. My life right now seems so pointless, so hollow and there’s nothing I can do to correct it. Yes something is wrong with me but the cure is so hard to find

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Saturday, May 06, 2006

 

Is it?

Is it selfish to hide yourself
And lock your doors from all the pain?
Is it selfish to build a wall
A protection to keep you sane?
Is it selfish to act so cold
And let no emotions show?
Is it selfish to delude the world
And not let your thoughts be known?
Is it selfish to always pretend
With a smile plastered on your face?
Is it selfish that behind that smile
Lurks a creature of disgrace?
Is it selfish to cover your ears
And ignore their tearful cry?
Is it selfish to drown out the words
For knowing in the end its all a lie?
Is it selfish to think of one’s self
And try to preserve ones’ sanity?
Is it selfish to spurn the world
Which through the eyes of prejudices see?

# created by Syre @ 5/06/2006 06:50:00 PM 0 reactions
 

Defeated

In the darkness

The figure hides

Hunched in the corner

Like a beaten child

Head averted

Bowed down in shame

Arms encircling the knees

Concentrating the pain

Limbs are tense

Expecting the blow

Focusing the mind

That nothing will show

So strong a being

Not running from pain

Yet silent tears are falling

Like droplets of rain

The night was still

Not a body stirred

The figure searched for peace

But it was not heard

Suffering in silence

Grieving alone

Its cry muted by the wind

As tough not known

Day by day it continues

Yet no one heeds its call

Days becoming bitter years

With no one to help it at all

An eternity of anguish

Endless sorrow

With the rising of the sun

It might fade into tomorrow

But the being is spent

To tired t try

Just awaiting for dawn

Where its soul will fly


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