Thursday, February 24, 2005
Namamaalam
Paalam inang nagmamahal
patawad sa aking paglisan
Ngayo'y matutupad ang matagal ng dasal
Na isang buhay na puno ng kapayapaan
Paalam amang nagtataguyod
patawad sa aking paglayo
Sa wakas iiral ng ang iyong alinsunod
at mawawaksan ang pagbabalat- kayo
Paalam kapatid, kahati sa buhay
patawad at ika'y iniwang bigo
nawa'y maintindihan sa iyong pagkalumbay
na sukdulan na ang hapdi ng aking puso
Paalam kaibigang na laging nariyan
kasakasama sa bawat gawain
Patawad at ika'y aking iiwanan
at tuluyang mawawala sa iyong piling
Paalam irog, aking sinta
laging kasama sa tuwina
Patawad at hahayaang kita
na humarap sa dusang na nag-iisa
Paalam mundo na sa aki'y nagluwal
bukang liwayway di muli mapagmamasadan
Aking wawaksan ang buhay kong pagal
upang pighati'y di na muli maramdaman
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
Long week end
I just arrived from school (duh where else am I gana go?) and I'm virtaully free of things to do. Hehehe, this day seems so great since I got to spend some time with my blockmate Issa (since we had free cut for English), thenI saw my blockmates wear skirts. We talked about it last Monday, so I was dying to see them (plus i wanted to wear the new shirt I bought from Folded and Hung). I also so this guy I was crushing on (sort of) but I got a bit turned off because of his get up. Since the papers had already been passed (only one left and that's for eng) I'm enjoying my free time. Specially tomorrow, my class is only math and its at 730-900. Okay I still have to wake up early but hey!! I get to go home early too!!
Then there's Friday! Since its the feast of Edsa Revolution we dont have classes! Whoopee!! I get to spend my time lazing around and practically waste my time doing nothing. But alas here comes the kicker.
On Monday I have two exams. One is for Botany lecture and the other one is for Botany Lab. Then I have to pass the revised outline for English, including 15 note cards (which I have already done, thankfully) and 10 bibliocards. Also on Sunday i have to attend this fun run (which is totally not fun) for PE as my finals. So I have to wake up really early since its gana start at around 530 am
But hey, there is still plenty of time left for me to relax. I am so in dire need of a break because of the tedious work I have done for the past weeks. Thank God it finally here!! Salvation
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Debbie's debut
Yesterday was my brother's birthday. We had a celebration here at home but unfortunately I wasn't able to join them. You see it was also my blockmate's party. My parents said it was okay for me to go so I went
Kelly Nice Issa and me as Jasmie trias
Konti lang kami sa block an pumunta
Nababading na ata si marion
uyyy..anu yan?
Justin, Arthur and Ivan. Hay pacute as always
I dont know with you but these guys rock!!!
It was so fun because it was the first time we went out as a block late at night. We had a riot because of Arthur. He's such a clown that we just kept on laughing and laughing. I also got the chance to see them dance since the four of them were part of the 18 roses. hehehe. Then after everything we got to party!!! hehehe thse guess were party animals but Issa was so shy that we had to drag her to the dance floor.
All in all it was an evening i'll never forget. So I'm going to share with you guys the pix we took last night
Kelly Nice Issa and me as Jasmie trias
Konti lang kami sa block an pumunta
Nababading na ata si marion
uyyy..anu yan?
Justin, Arthur and Ivan. Hay pacute as always
I dont know with you but these guys rock!!!
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
Happy Valentines Day
Yo lo trate otra vez anoche. Era el dia de los enamorados mas yo no podría sentirme ningun amor, ningun calor de las personas alrededor de mi. Era tan vacia, asi que solo, izquierdo en el rincon oscuro revolcarse en auto compasion y el temblor contra el frio con que me rodea. Yo no podria parecer ayudarme. Es como si algo dentro de mi quiere escaparse de los limites rigidos de mi tan llamo la vida. Mi come adentro, royendo en la base que construi una vez. Yo no se lo que hacer ya. Con cada dia pasajero que mi resolucion desmenuza y tengo miedo. Tengo miedo por quiza un dia que acabo de ver yo mismo como un cadaver frio dentro de un ataud
Saturday, February 12, 2005
So much fun
hehehe, its Saaturday but alas I had to wake yp early because of my nstp. But will get to that in a little while. I'll first relate what happened to me yesterday.
It wasn't a typical friday for me. First of all I had an NSTP meeting (that ruined my shopping hours), practice for our Lit and a play to watch in the evening. It started well since I saw my 2 so called crushed that morning. The first was when we were in the corridors and the second when we were walking down the stairs. Something funny also happened that day. My block mate and I went to my car so I could unload my things. It was a shock for us to see that my othe blockmates car was beside and behind me. So with my devious mind we decided to put up their wippers.lol...but they caught us sneaking arround the parking lot so they retaliated..lol..
But something bad happened. My block mate (whom we think is gay) backed out from our scheduled practice because of some petty excuses. It really sucks because I arranged the practice so we could accomodate his schedule but apparently he doesn't give a damn about us or the presentation. So to relieve my anger Issa and I decided to go to East Wood. Actually we were really going there because we planned the whole thing weeks before nbut things came up.
So we shopped and shopped until I noticed that it was already 320 and we were supposed to meet Justin at 330!! Oh no!! so we frantically looked for a taxi and fortunately we arrived just in the nick of time. So we practiced with the songs and the puppets and we realized that we really need extra pairs of hands. Just then Marion came (he was our blockmate but not our groupmate) and we just wasted our time in Justin's house until we were ready to leave for the play
When we arived in school people were already going in but Ivan, our other blockmate was missing. Unfortunately we weren't able to locate him so we went inside without him. God! The play really sucked!! I mean it has a story and the actors were great but the way it was presented was not only sleezy but repulsive aswell. So during intermission we decided to ditch the play and just eat out. However Justin had somewhere else to go to and Nice needs to go home so only myself, Issa, Kelly and Marion went out.
It was so fun, we talked and talked and learned a lot of things from each other (specially Marion's love life..lol...) So like Justin he criticized the way I drive, saying that I'm reckless. Duh!! Asif he isn't
Okay today was our last NSTP outreach for the sem (Yeah!!!) but even though my Saturday schedule will be back to normal I'm still gana miss my kids. It was so funny because we forgot to buy food for the kids so I had to drive to Jolibee with only 15 mins remaining..Lol...my blockmates (course) were with me and like what the guys in my eng block said, I'm really reckless. What the hell, I only did that because we were running out of time. And it turns out we could ask the drivers of our jeep to bring us to Jolibee, so much for my trouble!!..So we had games when we reached the school. It was so much fun and like I said I'm going to miss those kids
But now, I have to focus on my Eng assingment. She told us to look for articles that have fallacies in them. How hard is that!!! OH well that's life
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
Hehehe
Hehehehe...Okay yesterday my group decided to have a practice for ourLit presentation. But the thing was my other 2 groupmates have late schedules so myself, Justin and Issa were the only ones left. Unfortuantely my last class is at 1200 so was Justin's but Issa's is at 130. So we had to wait. Also it was so hot yesterday. I mean it was really hot!!! Good thing I was wearing sleveless or else I would have roasted alive. So Justin proposed to do our practice at his house. So okay, we went from Ateneo to Greenmeadows..lol..it was so fun and his house was so amazing!!..
okay back to the practice. We spent most of our time doing the props since there were a lot. But we didn't neglect to have fun. We teased Justin tremendously regarding his views on women in general. Also he told us someting about his relationship with his ex-. Awww...he's such a sweet guy and he loves his ex so much that his trying his best to win her over. Then we got a tour of his house. Issa and I practically drooled over his closet!! I swear its every girls fantasy. Its walk in and directly beside the bathroom!!! But alas we later found out that our presentation was moved on mon (eeewwweee.....valentines) so we have to reserve the venue again and porbably practice again (but were having a prob with one of our groupmates...shit I want to wring his neck....)
So my next adventure happened only a while ago. Its ash a wednesday so we had mass in our church. Because of that our class at 1030-1130 was cancelled. My blockmates and I decided to go to mass (just to get the ash...nasty) and after that we went out to eat. It was so fun because we seldom get the chance to go out. Unfortunately our planned get away this friday was postponed because of the number of actvities we have. Oh well....but were planning to go to Justin's house so we could practice again.
Sunday, February 06, 2005
Quiero terminarlo todo
Trate de matarme anoche. Yo no lo podria ayudar ya. Era tan cansado de mi vida y las cosas que sucedian me a. Acabo de querer para renunciar, libertarme de esta miseria, de este dolor y de todo estos sufrimiento. Quiero tener la paz no solo para yo mismo pero para mis padres. Se cómo que comida arriba ellos es conmigo tan por eso yo quise terminarlo todo, asi que su sufrimiento dejaria. Hay todavia una linea dentro de la muneca. Una linea que hice en una tentativa para terminarlo todo. Estoy solo en este mundo. Nadie adorarme y nadie adorar. Yo no se lo que hacer mas con mi vida. Para tan largo he abrigado el penso de la matanzame y es solo ahora que hice la accion. Quiero morir, ahora y para terminar todo estos afligen. Acabo de querer para ir. Ah Dios apenas me toma ahora, y termino mi existance miserable
Thursday, February 03, 2005
Work...work...work
Wow I can't believe that the week is about to end. Even though its Thrusday I feel asif its only Tuesday. Maybe its because of all the things that I did the previous days. I remember my schedule last weekend. I actually I didn't have a week end:
Friday:
730-830: English, we had to work on our magazine that was due the following week
830-930: Lit
1030-1130: Botany *so far nothing dastardly has occurred so here's the twist*
100-400: Study for Botany because we have a long test the following Monday
700-900: watch play for Filipino
Saturday:
700-1200: NSTP
200-4:00: Watch Film for Lit at the UP Theatre
600-900: Go to Mass and eat out with my family
Sunday:
1000-400: Study for Botany
400-600: Write paper for Lit and finalize magaine for Eng
See? How fun my life was those past days? But the fun hasn't stopped. Im currently having problems with our Lit presentations. We're going to present the story "Dead Stars" by Paz Marquez Benitez by using creative means. My group decided that we do a puppet show so the task of doing the scrip fell on me. It was okay at first even though the story was 20 pages long, twice that of the other groups, but when our prof questioned our method of execution, I wanted to scream at her. Good thing myblock mate (who thought of thew whole concept ) intervened (also we think our prof has a rush on him).
Also I'm currently working on my shifting requirments. I'm going to transfer to BS pcyhology hopefully by summer. Gosh, I have so much subjects to catch up since the AB has lesser science than the BS. So I'm practically killing all my summer and my time so I could graduate on time. Pluse we have tons of paper. But for me they are okay, I mean all you need is time (which works for me oz I do things ahead) , pen, paper and your mind all your all set.
Good thing my schedule right now permits me to rest and relax. My PE and Fil were freecut so I got to go home early. Plus I got the chance to talk with the person incharge of the shifting in the Psych dept, so I know now what to do in the comming summer. I only have to work on the Lit presentations, the things needed and the things my kids would use in NSTP.
And then, Valentines is just arround the corner *sighs* Well I don't have anything against Valentines but still I'm both pissed and depressed because of its comming. Well I'm pissed because its such a mushy day. I mean, specially in school I think its the time where all the couples will celebrate because they can show how much they love their significant other to the whole world. Puhllleaaassse, asif we care right? But still I'm kind of depressed knowing that there is no significant other for me....*wail* I still can't believe it!! Four years without having a crush!! Although crush is way different from love, its still depressing that I can't seem to find that perfect one. *sighs* Oh well maybe its not meant to be...LOL..whatever..such cheezyness..ewwweee...
