for the past 3 months i've been thinking, if i really made the right decision. things have happened, issues brought up, problems dealt with and people encountered that confused my way of seeing things, of looking at things with the right persepective.

i entered a relationship thinking that i can find love, that i can feel love and that i can at last learn again how to love. i went through it with an open mind and an open heart, thinking that at long last i can have a glimpse of the emotion that has eluded me for quite a while but then things are never what they seem

ive been happy for the first part of the relationship but as it progressed, i felt hollowed out inside. It seemed as though nothing really was going on between us. Yes we communicate but we rarely saw each other because of our schedule and his financial problem. At times i felt i didnt have anyone, himself for that matter and that i was just living a normal life.

I also got fed up hearing about it, everything i do and everything that has any connection with me he condemns in a way that it makes me feel guilty of being who i am and what i am. i tried so hard to help and give him what he wants but then it doesnt seem to be enough. rather than being happy i became apathetic and angry

so i tried to do the right thing, to end it off since its not only unfair to him but to me as well.

i dont know if what i did was wrong, since his not speaking to me right now. i tried to voice out what i feel in regards to our relationship but its as if he doesnt want to listen.

i dont know what else to do